I can‘t stop my emotion.
I quit the company I had worked at for
twelve years.
Although I am around forty years old
Ⅰ haven’t gotten married. My girlfriend
and Ⅰ have a casual relationship.
Although It‘s the middle of summer.I
don’t see my girlfriend.
I have seven million yen in my retirement savings.I try to think about the future.
I have money but I don‘t have a friend
to drink with.That is the saddest thing.
So I will go to a crowded English bar in
aoyama.
I drink a heineken in the English bar.
in that bar half the people are foreign people.
I don‘t speak to other people.and nobody
speaks to me.
After one hour I have drunk two glasses of Budweiser.
I have also drunk a Golden Ale.an amber Ale and a Brown Porter.
At that time I called my girlfriend She told me that she is fine without me. she is OK without me. And I told her I‘m OK without her.It is the saddest greeting in the world.
After I hang up the phone I speak to a
foreign girl.I told her I‘m free.and I asked her to go to a Restaurant with me and I would pay for her.
She laughed and asked
“Are you kidding?”
“No I‘m serious”I said.
Her name is sharon. she is american I paid the bill and we decided to go to
Tochigi Nikko,
we go to Nikko toshogu,we talk about the
differences between American identity and Japanese identity while we drunk a
coffee near Chuzenji lake.and we talk about guilt and clear our minds in front of the Kegon waterfall.
Even though she doesn‘t know me I realized she is a honest person.
We talk about Hemingway in front of the
Rutou waterfall.we talk about establishing a sense of identity between American
and Japanese identity at the Senjou field.
By the time we got back to chuzenji lake
it was eight o‘clock .
In front of the lake sharon took my hand.
I said
“wait”
She invited me to wade in to the lake.
I said
“oh wait”
She doesn‘t care what I say and takes me
in to the lake.
we got wet.
we kissed.
we kissed in the warm air for a long
time.
My emotions are overflowing.
I don‘t want tomorrow to come.
I was entranced.
(THE END)
作品名:I can‘t stop my emotion. 作家名:松橋健一